2009 Good Year?Bad Year?

Year 2009, it was indeed a very looooong year for me.

I started year 2009 by enrolling in Sunway Uni College. This was my first time staying so far away from my family in Melaka. To me, it was like a total different schooling life.It was like a kampung girl entering a big and busy city life.

I made a promise to myself, I would never ever want to be a so called "head prefect' girl anymore, who everyone thought is a control freak. I never wanted to be a person who everyone tried to stay away from.

Indeed, I met lots of people in college. I got to know friends who are always there for me whenever I'm down.(Chin Shen,Kylie,JY,Dan,Dom,Jun Yu,Celene,Kim,YiBei...) I never had friends celebrating my birthday, giving me surprises and not to say, sing and play birthday song to me through the phone when I'm in the middle of the jungle. It was so touching for them to remember my birthday.
When I mentioned FRIENDS,I meant TRUE FRIENDS.They are the ones who made my year 2009 a worth to remember one.

The first six months of year 2009 was indeed a happy period for me however the next six months was like hell. However,this is the way life works. Life isn't as perfect as we hope for. Bad things come after good things and vice versa. The longer I stayed in this big city, I started to feel the culture differences between here and the place where I was born. Slowly it took my self esteem and confidence away... I used to be a girl who never really care to dress up or never border to think of what to wear to class the next morning, But now I was so concerned about my looks.I woke up in the morning and the first thing I did was standing infront of my my closet for 15minutes to figure out what dress I should wear so that I wont look ugly. After a trip with classmates, suddenly I felt I'm so different from city girls. The way I dress,my personalities, my interest,my hobby,the way I talk is totally different compared to theirs. Slowly, I'm losing my true self.That's the bad stuff.Not to forget, my horrible Dengue Fever experience.

Well, there are also good stuffs that happened in year 2009. I went Bangkok and Chengdu with my beloved family. Get straight A1 for SPM.Get full scholarship for CAT. FRIENDS of course! Went Redang Island,and also experience the feeling of being loved.

Year 2009 to me is a good year and a bad year as well. The first six months is like heaven and then next six months is like hell.However, I do believe everything happened for a reason. If bad things are fated to happen, the only way to deal with it is to accept it. I suffered a major breakdown this year. Kinda hard to believe for those who know me for long. Indeed, a major breakdown that changes my perception to life and personalities and the way I treat people. However, through all these experience, I will make myself a better person in time to come.

I would like to apologize to those whom I have hurt or insulted especially to Him and his friends. I'm sorry for being emotional at times. I promise things will get better next year.

To all my friends who are always there to provide me a shoulder for me to cry on and who are always there to listen to me(especially Kim), who are there to advice,support me,control me from doing stupid stuffs, I really thank you guys so much!It meant so much to me especially during the toughest and darkest moments of my life.You guys stand by me and show me the right way when I lost my direction in life. I love you guys!

To Him,for the past six months. thank you for giving me the experience of being loved.Thank for letting me being part of your life. Is really great knowing you and your family. Thanks for the Redang Trip, it was indeed a wonderful experience. And lastly thank you for making me stronger in life.

Now, I can officially say GOOOOOOOOD BYEEEEEEEE 2009! And welcome year 2010!!!
(Pray hard so that year 2010 will be a good year for me,no more bad times,kinda tired of it,really tired)

Happy Tong Zhi Festival!

Made traditional Tang Yuen today because tomorrow is Tong Zhi Festival. Gonna leave to Cheng Du, China tomorrow early morning so we celebrate it earlier. So, have you made Tang Yuen for tomorrow?




p/s: Going to celebrate this year Christmas in SNOW! Wohoo~

Steven Strait!

STEVEN STRAIT!!!!

He is soooooooooooo hot!
Saw him in Sky High and now The Covenent! Love his smile so much!
Melt my heart instantly!.........

TRUE

Read my brother's blog today...
Just sharing it with all of you guys! I think what he wrote is true.

"Was driving in the car today, not too sure whether its a coincidence or just its a signal from one above. Whenever I was thinking about something, He will be there to reply me.

The radio DJ was discussing on this topic, [erm] your feelings? She read out of the message sent by the audience saying you always get confused feelings of someone you like. Not knowing whether you should be happy or angry at a same time. In the end, you ended up emotional. Well, the only way out was to able to let things go easily.
I think for most guys, no matter how good you are in a handling a relationship, it always seem that you will always fall into the same trap. You know its gonna end bad, but there's always that little hope driving you, you somehow believe that little tiny percentage of hope might be just all it takes to make it through. It most circumstances, you are lying to yourself. I was hurt pretty badly in my first one, and sometimes you worried of too much of things when what comes next.
[Hmm] Maybe its just the environment that I'm exposed to, I heard more guys got hurt rather than girls nowadays, or maybe it's just me that over magnify the issue. Anyway, I still stick to my statement. Arguements are most welcome.

I sat down today thinking of what've I been through so far, and what I'm in NOW. Yes, it's true, friends comes and goes, never thought I would actually missed some of my friends. I've three friends that I trusted the most till now, one common thing in the is they have a same surname, LEE, and another one CHU. Actually, my exhousemates are really great people, somehow I felt the gap is getting larger. There are four of them, each with their really unique personality. ONE was really quiet, somehow the way he acted to be not caring, but you know he cares. ONE sometime I felt he kept his distance, but he cares and sensitive of the people around him, he portray cares in a different way. When you are down, he is the right person to go to cause he won't really care about your problem, making you feel less weak, cause there weren't really a big problem. TWO others was really good listener and analyzer, they listen and give constructive comments, once its all out, you felt less burdened.

Not everyone can be a good listener, I think most of us would agree on that too. A good listener makes you talk and feel safe to share. If you feel unsafe and insecure, words can hardly come out. I lost faith, I lost confidence in what I believe. I need to stay strong, otherwise... "

Sometimes is not just guy will experience such pain. Girls too have their weak moments and tend to let go slower than guys. Is a very painful experience but it makes me a stronger person, a better person.

-End-

Concentrate!

Lately been having problem to concentrate on my studies... Not like how I used to...
EXAM is in 16 days... I couldn't afford to fail my exam!
Study Hard Li Ting!!!

Sorry, just a post to motivate myself! Been letting stupid problems bugging me... I'm the world most stupid person!!!

Happy Birthday to My Brother ZHI QIN!

Is my brother birthday yesterday and too bad he's at Sunway, we couldn't celebrate his birthday...

But still, HAPPY BIRTHDAY KO!!! Will celebrate with you when you are back here in Melaka.
Since is your birthday, I'll help you to promote your video!

Love is BLIND

Quote of the Day

"Love is the Purest when you don't demand anything in return."

The Best Birthday I ever had!

I was in FRIM from 2nd Nov till 4th Nov.

It was exactly 12.00pm on the 4th of Nov,I received many calls and messages from my friends to wish me Happy 18th Birthday! Seldom my friends will remember my birthday since young. This is the first time where my friends waited till the clock ticks exactly at 12pm to wish me, to me, it meant a lot! Thanks guys!

My roommate, Kim is the first to wish me! Then followed by my high school friends and college friend.

Dominic and Celene even called me up from Melaka just to play guitar and sing a Happy Birthday Song to me though the phone! Oh Gosh, this is the first time my friends ever did that for me! It is really touching to be able to have friends singing happy birthday song to you when you are in the middle of the jungle! Thanks A lot Dom and Celene!

The next morning, after the camp had ended, I rushed back to college for my class. When I'm about to reach my class, my friend, Tharani saw me and she was shouting "Oh My God!!!The birthday girl is back!!!" She run back to the class and shouted again the same thing to the whole class! I was like stunned! The moment I step into the class, the whole class was singing me a birthday song. I'm really touched! Thanks a lot guys!

After class ended, I went back to hostel. After doing my laundry and cleaning myself up, I drop dead on my bed. I'm really tired. Slept for a while and recieved a call from my brother. He's bringging me out to celebrate my birthday. At the mean time, I also recieved call from Jun Yu, saying to watch movie at 9.30pm.

8.30pm, my brother is here and brought me to Wong Kok Char Chan Teng with some of his friend that I know to celebrate my birthday! He bought me 11 slices of Secret Recipe Cake of different flavour. Soooooooo sweet!!! Since it's my birthday, I get a huge and I mean really huge cup of milk tea for free! Throughout the whole meal, I keep on recieving calls from Steven rushing me to return to hostel. He said he emo, need some counseling from me and so on... Hmmmm, I sense something is not right... haha...

Some sneak preview on what happened next when I reached hostel!

To Be Continue...

22/10.2009 T8 Class

To anyone who is Group 1 CAT students,tomorrow T8 class will be at:


VENUE : LT4
TIME : 8am - 11am
3pm - 6pm

Please help to inform other classmates as well. Thanks!
Have a nice day!

Whatever

Super Adorable!!!




"Darling, you better finish your homework."
"Whatever"
"Darling, you clean up your room this moment."
"Whatever"
"Darling, your curfew is 10pm."
"Whatever"
"Darling, ARE YOU LISTENING TO ME?!"
"Whatever"

Friends!

Friends in Melaka!
http://yunasballad.blogspot.com/

New Hair Style.

p/s: Thanks Dom for ride back to college tomorrow!

I've been thinking of a new hair style. But just couldnt decide. So, I need HELP and comments people!

Choice A

Choice B(My favorite for now)

Choice C

Yes!

Finally, I MOVED ON!

I read his blog and didn't feel anything anymore. This is the first time I ever felt so! To all my friends who had help me gone through all these, I really appreciate you guys so much! You all meant so much to me. Especially to my Mom,Chin Shen, Kylie, JY, Jun Yu and Celene. Thank you so much! Finally, is all OVER!


p/s : Ashvinder, thanks for the McFlurry that day!

Malaccan

3rd January 2009 is the day when I officially move to KL for college. I had never been in KL for more than 4 days and here I am in KL from Monday till Friday.

Since I moved here, I notice there are so many differences between Malaccans and KL people. Somehow I feel so comfortable mixing with people who come from my hometown. They simply give me a warm feeling others couldn't give no matter how close me and others are, exclude Chin Shen and Kylie. I feel so comfortable with them. I just have to be myself when I was around them.

Oh Gosh, how much I wish Sunway College is at Melaka! No other place better than HOME.

Sunway Lagoooooooooon!

After T7 class on Wednesday, me and a group of hostel friends decided to go Sunway Lagoon.

About 11.00am, we left hostel and head to Lagoon. We get into the bus but Dom(short form for Dominic) and Albert was kinda late. Thank god that the bus are willing to wait for them. I was inside the bus and was looking at Albert and Dom chasing up to catch the bus. It was super funny when Dominic's slipper kinda flew away as he ran towards the bus...

Reached Lagoon, bought the tickets, and here goes the fun!!!

Well, we went Scream Park first. It was so brave of Dom to be standing first on the line. I was right behind him. I was pulling his shirt all the time. Too afraid... Sorry Dom! He's like a big brother trying to protect his sister... Btw, Scream Park really let you scream a lot! Haha...

More photos at my facebook account!

Armageddon

Watch this movie yesterday before heading back Melaka.
It really touched my heart. I couldnt hold my tears.
After watching this movie, I realized one thing that is much important in our life. Appreciate the people around you and live life to the fullest.

" At least He's still alive, nothing better than that."

Maybe he had changed but, I'm just glad that He's alive.


Alright, next post coming up Sunway Lagoooooooooooooooon!!! My life is just getting more and more exciting!!!

Roti Babi?

Heard of Roti Babi before??? Eaten it before?

After T6 progress test, went out with Kim then follow my brother to Cyberjaya to meet a whole group of friends! Played a few match of basketball with them. Apparently I am the only girl among 6 macho guys! Had a great time with them! After that, went to Old Town for dinner. Zi Jun recommand us to try a dessert namely Snow Dessert by 100 yen. It is super nice!!! Is my official favourite dessert. Makes me happy when I eat it! Feel like getting one now!

The next day, we decided to go for breakfast together at Jalan Dang Wangi. Zi Jun heard of the famous Roti Babi at this one famous old coffee shop, Yut Kee. Gosh, it's freaking delicious!!!

The almighty ROTI BABI.


Roasted Babi


Yut Kee

After breakfast, we decided to walk to KLCC. On our way there, saw this pizza shop, Yellow Cab. Been there before anyone?

Me and Yellow Cab

Reached KLCC, wondering what to do... Hmmmm, then my kiam siap brother decided to get free goodies bags at Furniture and Furnishing Fair at this KLCC convention centre.

Too much to write... To be continue...


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Whole Day Outing! Fun!!!

Let's start!

After T6 progress test, went to Pyramid with Kim. We had dinner at Sakae Sushi. Check out my photos using Canon 500D.

There are more to blog about! Stay tuned.

Ex.

Someone I loved so much regarded me as EX now in his blog and even link the the two alphabet EX to my blog.

Hurt.

Though I'm really his EX
But the word EX sounds so cruel.

But what ever is it. I am leading to a better life. More things awaiting me in the future.
I love him, but sometimes is not worth the love.

Chapter 2 - Hard times in My Life

Continue from previous post "Where are you when I need you?"

Saturday Morning, woke up with pain still in my body. Can hardly sleep. Wake up and thought that he will be accompanying me that day because is a weekend.
I saw him getting dress up so smartly and I wonder is he going out again?Yes, he's going out again. He's going for moral community service at Prima Selayang.
" Alryt, is something he have to go, he's coming back soon to see me." I told myself. Then he told me, "I am going to Bon Odori after the community service."My heart sunk . I asked him what time are you coming back?He's not sure.

Bon Odori is event held till night time, he will definitely be back only late night. I've been there before. Was really hoping he will accompany me that day since that's the only day we don't have any classes. I try to hint him, telling him that if you go, you can only be back here around 11pm something. But he said "I feel like going, is my first time going". Ok I said.

Afternoon, stuck in my hostel, lying on my bed with body still aching, I was thinking of Him. I miss him so badly, wished he was right beside me. I send him random messages ," How are you doing now?", "I miss you", "I love you". Just to show him I really miss him.

Lunch time. I asked Yi Bei to buy me lunch from Medan. I tried to eat although I don't have any appetite. I tried so hard to shallow the food but the taste is simply awful. I can barely eat two spoonful of rice. After that, I just return back to my bed and lied down.

Sleeping now is very tough for me. I couldnt sleep. I was turning here and turning there in my bed. Keep changing my sleeping position .Even my housemate and roommate kept asking me" Are you alryt? Do you want me to contact him for you?" I told them He's busy, is ok.

Waiting so hard for the time to pass second by second, looking at my watch, waiting patiently for him. Was hoping He can make it in time to see me before my family bring me back to Melaka again.

I kept starring at my handphone, waiting for his messages, his calls. Never once I left my phone away from me. If anytime he's thinking of me, I will be very happy. At least he thought of me when he's out there. He still care for me I thought.

7pm. He's back! So glad to see him.Feel like hugging him thightly in my shoulders. Thought he decided not to go Bon Odori. Then, he told me, I'm back for a while to see you. I'll have to go in a moment,my friends are waiting for me to go Bon Odori. Again, is like a heavy stone being thrown to me in my heart. But, I didnt tell him the truth, I just said " Alryt, you go la, since is your first time, enjoy." He left after a while. I'm still there in my bed,,just more pain. That's the last time I meet him as my boyfriend.

10.30pm. He called me."I'm reaching soon" I told him " my mom is here, I'm going back.I got to leave already." He said" I'm about to reach." Too bad, My parents couldnt stay any longer.I'm on my car and we left. He didnt make it on time to see me.

Monday morning, went clinic with mom. Doctor took my blood for blood test.

Monday afternoon, blood test result is out. Doctor called my mom. He asked my mom to bring me to the hospital straight away. He said my blood platelets level is very critical. Is too low. If I delay any longer, I will put my life on risk.

Monday late afternoon, Mom packed my stuff, took my test report and left to Pantai Medical Centre. Went to see a specialist, admitted into ward immediately.Doctor meight my body.I'm shocked to see my body weight drop 7kgs in 7 days. That day till that time, I didnt recieve any message from him. Guess he's busy in class.

Lunch time, nurse came in. Took my blood for a detailed test. She will have to poke twice to get blood from my body. Once behind my palm and another time between my upper arm and lower arm. Cottons used to stop further bleeding at injection areas at my body is soaked with my blood. It's so scary to see how the white cotton became so red in colour. My blood couldn't clot.

My body is dehydrated, sodium chloride is being injected into my body slowly. A needle is poked behind my palm into my vessel. A narrow pipe is connected to the needle in my hand to transfer sodium chloride solution into my body. I will have to take it until I am allowed to discharge. They hang the solution using a movable tripod. I would have to carry it where ever I go, even to the toilet. I cant bath either. I can only lie on my bed.

Sodium Chloride that prevents me from dehydration.

6pm. Finally I get a message from Aaron. I've waited for long. I opened the message and My heart sunk again. " I'm going for a football match." He sent. Thought he'll be asking whether I'm feeling better ? I am simply speechless. Tears fall from my eyes that very moment.

He's here when I'm...

here...

To be continue...

New Friends...

Shall continue with my older post soon when I got the mood...

Well, been really grateful to know a lot of friends nowadays, especially when they are all hostiles. We hang out a lot this few days. Really enjoy going out with them. I feel no discrimination at all!!!
Albert, Dominic and Celene, thanks for being so friendly!

Where are you every second I'm suffering?

Where are you when I need you?

This is the question that had been circulating in my head for two weeks." Where is him when I need him badly?"

Was suffered from Dengue fever for previous two weeks. Something that could have taken my life away. This is the moment when I need family and Him to be right beside me.

Monday afternoon, my back ache suddenly and I feel so cold in class. Yet, I had no choice but to continue my class till 6.15pm. I wrapped myself in three layers of jackets and couldnt even sit straight in class. Was trying so hard to concentrate but I failed, the pain is simply unbearable.

Monday night, went back to hostel immediately after class. Drop dead in my bed immediately. Thought it was just a normal fever but heck the my temperature increase significantly when I woke up. Took panadols but nothing seems to improved. My back is getting worst and I can feel that my body is getting weak. Couldnt sleep, couldnt eat, couldnt concentrate on studies.

Tuesday morning, wake up with fever still on. Went to Sick Bay with Aaron for a check-up. My temperature is so high it might cause brain damage. The nurse asked me to return back to hostel and get a quick shower to lower down my temperature. Later on, I notice I no longer have the strenght to even stand, lost my appetite, what ever that I eat taste awful! Lying in bed with my back aching and my head felt 10 times heavier, I really need my mom badly. He's in class. I'm suffering, really suffering, really pain.

Tuesday evening, went to SUC with Kim. Went to emergency department to see doctor to find out what really went wrong with my body. Cost my RM69 for panadols, flu medicine and cough syrup. Doctor couldnt identify what's wrong. Back to hostel with the same condition. Pain.

Tuesday night, He came, Cooked porridge for me. Put wet cloth on my forehead. And, left because there's nothing much he can do. Sleep for one hour and a half, wake up with my fever getting worst! He urged my brother to come quickly to bring me to Subang Jaya Hospital. Same opinion from doctor. My pain is still there. Mom came down to Sunway, picked me back to Melaka after that.

Wednesday, Thursday, fever is still on.Didnt hear much from him. Guess he is busy. But I couldnt afford to miss so many classes and the Prom.I know He was hoping I can attend. Decided to go back to campus on Thursday night. Still weak.

Friday morning, attended one hour of class. Couldnt concentrate and hence have to go back to hostel. Sleep for three hours. Shallowed 4 tablets of panadol to hold my pain. Was hoping that I am able to go to Prom with Him.

Friday night, Prom night. Went to Prom with Him. Took along my panadols with me just in case. Reached. People taking photos everywhere. Photo session is so long. I started to feel pain in my back. Need a seat badly but ball room is not ready yet. Wanted to shallow another two panadols, but heck I bring the wrong medicine. Holding my pain with smile on my face, people didnt notice I am so painful. Later on,He asked "Can you don't show me your sad face?" My heart sunk at that moment. I told Him, I'm simply weak. Went to bathroom, thank JY Female and Cheryl for their sincere help with my make-up. I need make up to cover my pale face. I couldnt stand long, my back starts aching again, Cheryl had to hold me. I'm weak. Seriously weak. But, did He know?

After Prom, MOS. I noticed I forget to bring my ID. His anger expression shows immediately. Didnt expect that to happened. He's frusfrated. All I can do now is call my brother up and picked me back to hostel. I left MOS. He entered. Back to hostel, get changed, and drop on my bed immediately. Too weak to stand any longer. Couldnt sleep well, was waiting for his call every second. Hope that he will come back to see me. But I'm just too innocent.

2.15am, He called. He finished his clubbing session.

To Be Continue.

Movie Day!

Hang out with few of my classmate today at Sunway Pyramid. A fun outing I would say! We went for pool before our movie started. Oh gosh, Jun Yu is super addicted to it and I am stunt with Kah Soon style of playing pool*HOT*!!! Haha.

Watched Land Of The Lost and guess what? There arent enough tickets and we end up sitting seperately. There are 2 of us wil hv to sit at the couple seat?!?!?! Haha, glad that Daniel is willing to accompany me.So worried that he will feel ackward... And ya, I enrolled in ice-scating class!!! Looking forward for class next week!

The legendary World Olympic Champion -Michelle Kwan-my idol!

Just had a great day today!~Thanks friends!

Superb Curry Puff!

Today is Curry Puff Day!!!

Have you ever eaten Ikea Curry Puffs before? I bet whoever who tried it before will say "Wow! It is delicious!"
Curry Puffs, crispy in the outside, soft in the inside, the fragrant smell of curry, the sauce simply oozes out in your mouth on the first bit .... wohooo~~~ Yummy!

KOREAN FOOD!

I just had Korean Food as dinner today. My family wanted to try something special and we decided to dine in a Korean Food Restaurant at Bukit Baru near Taman Sentosa. We always pass by the restaurant because it is along the way to our school. Despite that , this is our very first time dining at that restaurant.

Well, first thing that come into my mind when I first step in is " Wow, love the deco!"
Then, they served up all the side dishes like Kimchi, and lots of food!(don't really know their name... haha)

My dad ordered BBQ beef or better known as Bul-gogi(Love it!!!), BBQ chicken and pork. The boss actually bbq the food infront of us using charcoal! The smell is simply marvellous.It is my family first time eating Korean food and we don't actually know how to eat it. The boss, Mr. Charlie(Real korean!!!) have to tell us in fact we have to wrap the BBQ chicken and pork using lettuce with any side dishes you like. Well, for the beef you just simply eat it with rice.Haha. We are all like " Ooooooh..." But too bad at that time, most of the side dishes are in our tummy already... haha... The rice is very different than the rice we normally eat. It is more sticky and well taste better! Love Kimchi, Bulgogi and korean rice to the max!

After that, Mr. Charlie serve us two complimentary dishes, one sup and one egg dish since is our first time there!!! Such a nice men!!! And he even gave us a RM 10 boucher and he even tapao Kimchi for us.

Guess I'm now a big Korean Food Fan!!!

I HATE I HATE I HATE

I hate the me who is not me!

Shogun Japanese Buffet

I really enjoyed myself last Friday at Shogun Japanese Restaurant.Shogun Japanese Buffet is having 50% Discount for Buffet Lunch and 30% discount on Buffet dinner till June 5th. After tax and service charge I only paid for RM24.70 per head. The food is really worth the price I would say. They have so many choices of sushi, tempura, tempayaki, seafood, sashimi and so on! It is simply heaven!

And the Good News is I am going again next Wednesday! Hooray!

New Me.

Lots of thoughts had been going through my mind this few weeks. I had been very sensitive lately. Couldn't control my emotion and often self-depressed. I really don't want to be a person who only have negative thoughts in life. I want to change! Be a better me and be happy. So Think Simple and always tolerate!
What ever happens, I will take things easy. Life isn't just about feeling down or bad... is about ENJOY.

Smile is always the standout one.