2009 Good Year?Bad Year?

Year 2009, it was indeed a very looooong year for me.

I started year 2009 by enrolling in Sunway Uni College. This was my first time staying so far away from my family in Melaka. To me, it was like a total different schooling life.It was like a kampung girl entering a big and busy city life.

I made a promise to myself, I would never ever want to be a so called "head prefect' girl anymore, who everyone thought is a control freak. I never wanted to be a person who everyone tried to stay away from.

Indeed, I met lots of people in college. I got to know friends who are always there for me whenever I'm down.(Chin Shen,Kylie,JY,Dan,Dom,Jun Yu,Celene,Kim,YiBei...) I never had friends celebrating my birthday, giving me surprises and not to say, sing and play birthday song to me through the phone when I'm in the middle of the jungle. It was so touching for them to remember my birthday.
When I mentioned FRIENDS,I meant TRUE FRIENDS.They are the ones who made my year 2009 a worth to remember one.

The first six months of year 2009 was indeed a happy period for me however the next six months was like hell. However,this is the way life works. Life isn't as perfect as we hope for. Bad things come after good things and vice versa. The longer I stayed in this big city, I started to feel the culture differences between here and the place where I was born. Slowly it took my self esteem and confidence away... I used to be a girl who never really care to dress up or never border to think of what to wear to class the next morning, But now I was so concerned about my looks.I woke up in the morning and the first thing I did was standing infront of my my closet for 15minutes to figure out what dress I should wear so that I wont look ugly. After a trip with classmates, suddenly I felt I'm so different from city girls. The way I dress,my personalities, my interest,my hobby,the way I talk is totally different compared to theirs. Slowly, I'm losing my true self.That's the bad stuff.Not to forget, my horrible Dengue Fever experience.

Well, there are also good stuffs that happened in year 2009. I went Bangkok and Chengdu with my beloved family. Get straight A1 for SPM.Get full scholarship for CAT. FRIENDS of course! Went Redang Island,and also experience the feeling of being loved.

Year 2009 to me is a good year and a bad year as well. The first six months is like heaven and then next six months is like hell.However, I do believe everything happened for a reason. If bad things are fated to happen, the only way to deal with it is to accept it. I suffered a major breakdown this year. Kinda hard to believe for those who know me for long. Indeed, a major breakdown that changes my perception to life and personalities and the way I treat people. However, through all these experience, I will make myself a better person in time to come.

I would like to apologize to those whom I have hurt or insulted especially to Him and his friends. I'm sorry for being emotional at times. I promise things will get better next year.

To all my friends who are always there to provide me a shoulder for me to cry on and who are always there to listen to me(especially Kim), who are there to advice,support me,control me from doing stupid stuffs, I really thank you guys so much!It meant so much to me especially during the toughest and darkest moments of my life.You guys stand by me and show me the right way when I lost my direction in life. I love you guys!

To Him,for the past six months. thank you for giving me the experience of being loved.Thank for letting me being part of your life. Is really great knowing you and your family. Thanks for the Redang Trip, it was indeed a wonderful experience. And lastly thank you for making me stronger in life.

Now, I can officially say GOOOOOOOOD BYEEEEEEEE 2009! And welcome year 2010!!!
(Pray hard so that year 2010 will be a good year for me,no more bad times,kinda tired of it,really tired)

Happy Tong Zhi Festival!

Made traditional Tang Yuen today because tomorrow is Tong Zhi Festival. Gonna leave to Cheng Du, China tomorrow early morning so we celebrate it earlier. So, have you made Tang Yuen for tomorrow?




p/s: Going to celebrate this year Christmas in SNOW! Wohoo~

Steven Strait!

STEVEN STRAIT!!!!

He is soooooooooooo hot!
Saw him in Sky High and now The Covenent! Love his smile so much!
Melt my heart instantly!.........

TRUE

Read my brother's blog today...
Just sharing it with all of you guys! I think what he wrote is true.

"Was driving in the car today, not too sure whether its a coincidence or just its a signal from one above. Whenever I was thinking about something, He will be there to reply me.

The radio DJ was discussing on this topic, [erm] your feelings? She read out of the message sent by the audience saying you always get confused feelings of someone you like. Not knowing whether you should be happy or angry at a same time. In the end, you ended up emotional. Well, the only way out was to able to let things go easily.
I think for most guys, no matter how good you are in a handling a relationship, it always seem that you will always fall into the same trap. You know its gonna end bad, but there's always that little hope driving you, you somehow believe that little tiny percentage of hope might be just all it takes to make it through. It most circumstances, you are lying to yourself. I was hurt pretty badly in my first one, and sometimes you worried of too much of things when what comes next.
[Hmm] Maybe its just the environment that I'm exposed to, I heard more guys got hurt rather than girls nowadays, or maybe it's just me that over magnify the issue. Anyway, I still stick to my statement. Arguements are most welcome.

I sat down today thinking of what've I been through so far, and what I'm in NOW. Yes, it's true, friends comes and goes, never thought I would actually missed some of my friends. I've three friends that I trusted the most till now, one common thing in the is they have a same surname, LEE, and another one CHU. Actually, my exhousemates are really great people, somehow I felt the gap is getting larger. There are four of them, each with their really unique personality. ONE was really quiet, somehow the way he acted to be not caring, but you know he cares. ONE sometime I felt he kept his distance, but he cares and sensitive of the people around him, he portray cares in a different way. When you are down, he is the right person to go to cause he won't really care about your problem, making you feel less weak, cause there weren't really a big problem. TWO others was really good listener and analyzer, they listen and give constructive comments, once its all out, you felt less burdened.

Not everyone can be a good listener, I think most of us would agree on that too. A good listener makes you talk and feel safe to share. If you feel unsafe and insecure, words can hardly come out. I lost faith, I lost confidence in what I believe. I need to stay strong, otherwise... "

Sometimes is not just guy will experience such pain. Girls too have their weak moments and tend to let go slower than guys. Is a very painful experience but it makes me a stronger person, a better person.

-End-

Concentrate!

Lately been having problem to concentrate on my studies... Not like how I used to...
EXAM is in 16 days... I couldn't afford to fail my exam!
Study Hard Li Ting!!!

Sorry, just a post to motivate myself! Been letting stupid problems bugging me... I'm the world most stupid person!!!

Happy Birthday to My Brother ZHI QIN!

Is my brother birthday yesterday and too bad he's at Sunway, we couldn't celebrate his birthday...

But still, HAPPY BIRTHDAY KO!!! Will celebrate with you when you are back here in Melaka.
Since is your birthday, I'll help you to promote your video!

Love is BLIND

Quote of the Day

"Love is the Purest when you don't demand anything in return."